I Miss…
… Emirates. But most I miss Lebanese food from Maroush.
First time I ate at Maroush was almost 10 years ago… and I fell in love. BEST LEBANESE FOOD IN THE WORLD. It tastes and looks delicious. And after all this time… it’s still the same. Yet, the place has changed a bit. No, I’m not speaking about the toilets that never existed… 
After all, it’s just a modest restaurant at the corner of the street. The tree at the entrance is almost dead, the tables are different, but the mosque and the wonderful building next to it are still there, still shining in the dark. What a view!! What a night…
25 & Learning To Walk
I was constantly, obsessively looking at my feet today… I was watching them while walking on the street – in every window, in every door that mirrored them… trying to walk normally, trying to correct every step.
I had never questioned the way I used to walk. I thought everyone walks the same way. WRONG! I was doing it wrong. Just putting one foot in front of the other… It seems it’s not that simple. When you make a step you must throw your leg in front, push and roll… then throw the other one. I was never moving my knees just my whole foot…. pretty strange to discover this at 25.
But still… I am so proud of myself. 
Tomorrow Is Another Day
Things aren’t always as they first appear. People you thought you knew well and circumstances that you thought you understood thoroughly now seem anything but straightforward. Has the world really changed that much or has your perception altered somehow? It’s time to direct this “altered” vision inward. You’re ready for a change, Aries. Perhaps it’s time to dust off that resume.
First day of spring
Today was the first day of spring for me… so warm and sunny. I turned my face and smiled at the sun. And I was so happy I could do that.
What do I want from life? Something to complete all the happiness I feel…
a snowdrop!!!
God
When I was little my grandma and I were saying prayers every night before going to bed. It was a wonderful moment… full of warmth and peace. I knew that if I remind Him I’m there, He will take care of my family and my beloved friends. In this way I started to care more for the others than for myself… but I forgot praying.
Today I believe in him because I want to believe. Because I believe in my spirit and my desire of being happy. Because I consider that each piece of this world has its creator.
There were some moments when I used to ask myself… “Is He our hope or just the resemblance of our need for hope, the one person or the one thing we need to blame for our mistakes or to say thanks for our successes… ” Even if, at some point, I denied His existence I hope He’s there… because sometimes I make so many mistakes…
Posted by Alexandra under Memories Worth To Remember | Permalink | No Comments »Not the end of the world
You might think there are so many reasons to be sad and angry in this world: your cat got pregnant, the neighbour downstairs is renovating his appartment and the noise gives you a lot of stress, the weather outside is pretty bad and your chocolate pudding is too hot to be eaten, your wife is cheating on you and the whole world hates you.
But no, not really… your cat will have some wonderful kittens, fluffy and adorable, your neighbour will be kindly when you will listen to your hard rock music, the weather is constantly changing so it won’t be bad forever – just take a good sleep, and your chocolate pudding is really tasty so it’s worth waiting for, your wife is not cheating on you if she smiles and another good news.. the rest of the world doesn’t give a shit about you. Much more than 99,9 % of the people on this planet don’t even know you exist. This doesn’t mean you are alone… it means you are free.
Some time ago, somebody told me: “you are beautiful…you are made to be happy and beautiful.” And that is what I’m trying to do. And you stranger should do that too. You are made to be happy and beautiful. We all are.
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Sing a new song, chiquitita
Trying to remember… where the nightmare started… when he started to think all bad things about me. Small lies… trying to keep him calm. And it was worse. And I couldn’t stop. And nobody could believe me when I was telling the truth. But I didn’t lie with what I was feeling. Never.
“Prove me that the proofs of your truth are real.” And you realize you will always need a proof. Because he sees you different from now on. Too stubborn to prove the last proof? Maybe a little, or just too tired to prove something you did not do, tired of fighting… When you love someone you just know, you just feel him or her and know he or she is there for you. If you don’t let your mind take over your body, if you take for real every caress, and you kiss instead of hitting, all things will be normal and peaceful. But it’s hard, hard to take control of our bad thoughts.
Despite everything, I have no bad memories. Four wonderful months. But I still wonder… was it worth?
So the walls came tumbling down
And your love’s a blown out candle
All is gone and it seems too hard to handle
Chiquitita, tell me the truth
There is no way you can deny it
I see that you’re oh so sad, so quiet
Chiquitita, you and I know
How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they’re leaving
You’ll be dancing once again and the pain will end
You will have no time for grieving.
All that I know is that I’ll be fine and I’ll be dancing once again… even it’s not so soon ;)
Abba are immortal.
Posted by Alexandra under Living Day By Day | Permalink | 1 Comment »Colors of autumn…
Goodbye autumn, winter is here… Every year the season I love most goes away soooo fast. Colors of autumn remind me of my childhood and all the feelings of that little girl come to my soul: empty trees, golden leaves and flowers, cloudy sky and rain all over. For me it’s not sad, just colorful.
When I was a little girl my grandma used to take me for a walk. We were going to crush autumn underfoot… step slowly on the fallen leaves and gather chestnuts from the trees. IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL and so childish… I remember I was so happy that autumn was there… at my feet.
Goodbye autumn.
Posted by Alexandra under Memories Worth To Remember | Permalink | No Comments »Red, Sweet Pepper
There are some days when I have money to buy the entire food store. Today, I had money to buy the biggest and most beautiful sweet pepper and the tastiest banana. No day is bad day, there are just good days and less than good days. The only sweet pepper I can buy, every green traffic light on my way, every car parked on the sidewalk that drives away and lets my road clear, every person who smiles, every deep breath I take… all are sooooooooo worth living for.
I have no idea what will be tomorrow… I just know that today I’ll make a great salad.
Happiness
For 23 years never looked for happiness. I knew it was there: inside me. The last year was a permanent search of happiness, a total failure, a search that brought me dispair, anger, sadness. I forgot believing in myself, in eveything that used to make me happy. Happiness is not to be chased, but to be shared. Happiness is like a butterfly… as soon as you believe in yourself.
